She's gone through lots of ups and down recently... At times she felt like screaming her lungs out... There's sooooooooooOOooooOoo many things running through her mind and at one point of time she felt hopeless... It's history but the scar left behind is not gone... She reveal her true colours already...
It all happened that particular day... She was engrossed with assessing her friend for practical and out of nowhere the I**** came and like find fault... I**** was like telling her to go to other dummy when she was at the correct dummy at the first place... She got furious coz she was assessing her friend and was interrupted by such pathetic attention seekers... She told him off and he muttered something rude so she replied back and then he got really really really frustrated... As if the i**** was being possessed by the devil, he wanna hit her... Others calm him down and then he finally stop... I**** was like luckily you're a girl, if you're a guy..." Yeahh... She didn't do anything, not even pushed him and he got so f*** up... She felt really really really heartless... She even made that "i don't care plus do you think i'm scared of you," look... Teacher wasn't around so it's a good thing coz I dun wanna be involved even when I'm in the right... Troublesome you know... As tests coming right up and This kind of things shouldnt be a distraction... Fancy i**** going around and telling others is the quarrel started off with something else... Trying to change the story ehh... LIAR!
Hmmm... Think you're a big shot? Think that every girl would go gaga over you just because of your looks? 0.o BIG MISTAKE... Weirdo... One moment you're angry and the next you're trying to be nice... Exactly like someone I knew... I'm glad I'm finally over it... Each time when our paths crossed, i**** would just glare at me and my reaction would be "dun look at him coz he's not a big celebrity" Too much of confidence, she could even think that's she's pretty that's why i**** kept on glaring... She's never scared of him... Even if he were to punch her and she didn't retaliate, it won't ever be her fault... I**** thinks he's some gangster... I**** thinks everyone is scared of him... NOT =P bring it on lahhh... You're on the good side... The world's gone upside down these days... Ppl side with the baddies... But she knows who her true friends are through this...
She'd wash hands for those who never bother... She won't care anymore coz they're not worth her effort... The irony part is, i**** is elder bro's age and still behaves like a kid... Haiz... No wonder this kind of ppl exist in this world o.o EXTREMELY BRAINLESS...
She feels insecure actually... When she didn't mix around... She kinda have fobias in friendship... Like whoever that's close with her will get a mishap... Her past seemed to be that way but now, she's met this amazing gurl whom she's extremely close with... In fact they're like best friends... Another friend came along and joined her too... Well, others were gossiping, talking bout it but she dun bother... Why care about what others think of you... Why worry about the unnecessary? They'll stop once they're tired...
Can she share other stuff apart from her bf... She feels that she's getting paranoid listening to whatever her bf did... She was okay when she open up to her about her problems and all but seriously she wanna stop knowing bout what the bf say to her coz it doesn't concern her... She's getting tired of it... Never will a day pass by without her mentioning about her bf... Feels that she's forced to listen to all the crap... Thanks to a colleague of hers, she's been extremely defensive towards guys... To the extent that she challenged a guy's ego and it made her felt better each time she challenged a guy's ego... She's unique and different from others coz she have her own stand... Glad that she's blessed with such friends who understand her n_n hehe... You know who you are *winkz*
Her first love taught her lotsa things except the part to stop missing him... How difficult can it be to stop missing someone... When all along he's been the one who's there for her each time she needed someone... How difficult can it be to stop loving someone... Irony isn't it when it's super super super easy to hate a person... Though she's hurt, she nvr stop giving him chances... She felt that it's because of him, she dunno if she could snap out of all this and fall in love again... Crushes and infatuations are temporary... Ouh well... Shall stop talking about this coz my focus should not be here but on studies... GO GIRL! She'll stand strong on her own feet and she knows she's independent enough... Friends are more than enough...
K lahhh... It's been a long post... I'm outta here...
Sayonara!