0Ain't sure of it... Guess last min kinda thing doesn't work... Not saying that I totally give up but having lotsa doubts... Will i be able to make it... Seems like it's too far to reach... Been struggling and obstacles coming... It's just difficult... It's weird that you still find hope... You've put in effort but it's just not enough... She told her to move one step further... But each time she moved one step further, it also seems like she moved a few steps backwards... Pathetic as it seems and she'll continue to strive... Each different experience is like a lesson learn... Nothing in life is easy... It'll never end but is always a beginning... The tears are completely dried up... As long as you know yourself and ain't giving up... You'll just give it a best shot... WHy worry when you're giving your best already... If it ain't now, it could be later... Who knows...
Hmmmm... Anw, today when I was on my way back, I noticed some familiar faces... Luckily I was wearing shades... Dunno what's with me I kinda smiled... Perhaps in a good mood... But that look... Ishhhh... Scary enough for me to turn away... Like someone giving you an expressionless glare... Do i make sense? Ouhhh well... Nvm, who cares bout that... Then another random person came by and sat next to me... I was busy texting some dear friends of mine and he kinda peep at the texts 0.o haiyoooo... Didn't know that some guys could be a kpo... Maybe I was smiling while texting and he's curious to know what I'm saying... For his side, it's like he send texts to ppl but they nvr reply and he desperately sounds like calling someone... Ishhhh... Dah2, stop it ehhh... Mengumpat pula dia XD hehe
Hoping for a miracle to happen tmr... If it doesn't, then I'll just have to accept what's fated... I've never falt as serene before... Like accepting things as they are... Or she's just a slow reaction person... Takes time to be emotional or sentimental... Speaking of which, it is becoming like a hobby already... Why it's been years but it's soooooooooooOoooooOooo damn hard to let go and move on... Maybe you've let go but she's just clinging onto the past? Wait... Does that make sense... He came to her mind out of a sudden... She'd still picture them like before... She felt that happiness...
Though it was only for a while, it's better to be in love and lost rather than not to be in love at all... Tears dried up and she knows that it's not worthwhile to waste anymore... At times she's in her world of her own... The past seemed to be her shadow and that mindset of hers... Both were at fault... She felt deeply attached and thought he was her guardian angel... As for now, it's been 5 years but it seemed like yesterday... They say time will heal a broken heart but it's like a scar which stays embedded forever... Just let it be... I'll stick to another principle... If you're happy, then I'm happy too even though we're not together... Your happiness is all that matters...
Stuck with house chores when at home... It feels like being forced to do something... Like she's becoming the punching bag... When it feels like it isn't entirely her fault... It's driving her crazy mannn... All along she's been doing it to the extend that she gets tired of it... Why she's the one who gets all the scolding when the rest are also at fault... Hopefully she stays strong and patient to not let it affect her... She have to endure, she have to persevere... In the long run, it'll benefit her... She felt like screaming her lungs out but she couldn't do so... Bottled up too many things ehhh... She'd resort to silly things and become sadist... It's like nothing's right and everything's wrong... Really really really have to find a day to release all this negative energy mannn...
KAe kae... Enough of all this... IShhhhh... What's wrong with these hormones mannnn 0.o tuishgjkgfjaghoahjagnjkhtpa?! XD What's the point of thinking too much... It's history... Get over it... You've been managing well... Take it as a lesson learn... Stick to your principles... You'll be fine... Stay focus... "you think about what you do not have and are ungrateful for what you are given" Sometimes it's just difficult to be contented with what an individual is offered... She know her own limits... If she push herself but the results are the same, don't be disheartened... She's excited for new things but it'll be a disappointment in the end... So, maintain composure tu ehhhh n_n hehe...
Miracles do happen... You'll be surprised... Just move forward and even though the path is blury, keep moving forward for when it is clear... She'll know that's what she wants... Anw, all the best for tmr... Really really really looking forward to it =)) Gtg... Sayonara!
