Now's already february and it felt like just ytd i update the blog... Hmmm... Seems like whatever's that's gonna happen will make me grow... Like being outside of the comfort zone... Like just do it... Like dun have that thoughts to limit yourself... Like how you can just be yourself... Like how ytd turn out to be a good one...
There's this tahlil for my late great grandma... I wasn't at home coz I was helping out at my dearest auntie's place... She really prepare alot of food mann including my fav kuih n_n what's best is there doesn't seem to be alot of stress coz she kept on telling me to go have my rest as my eyes look like zombie... And when I rest, it's like 2-3 hours... It's great to have a long rest in such nice weather... Once i close my eyes, it felt like i've fallen into a very very very deep sleep... It felt better after the rest and continued with the work... We had some conversations going on and with her, it's like I could share and tell everything... The one and only auntie who's been pretty close to me... Felt like I've got an adult friend and she always listens... We joke around too and when the topic of "si gila" came up, i had a good laugh... All I can say is she knows me best and I'm glad that not only i could confide in her, she also does the same... Guess it's a two way thing ehh... Probably it's in my nature to be open and she's open too... I've discovered something too... She's a leo... So when leo and leo meets, it's easy to click... As always n_n hehe...
Overnight at her place and it was a cold night too... I woke up a few times feeling cold but then went back to sleep... Surprisingly, I had multiple dreams which is pretty unexpected... It's best that I keep it to myself then... So the next morning, just had a wash up and help to pack the items to bring for the tahlil... That morning, my abg sedara kind of like tease me... Like finally, I can't run away anymore... Kept on saying bout the friend I've introduce to him and blahblah blah... Whatever I do seems like he wanna pick up a fight >.< The way i clean the sink, the way i fry the samosa... And my auntie just had a good laugh at everything... Especially when she asked whether he saw me when he reached home... He's like ahhh... Dunno who's lying next to mummy... I'm like yeahhh right... I met your gaze at that time =P What was my reaction? Just smile lor... What to do o.o Soon enough... Family came and sis pass me my stuff for me to change... Quickly change and headed to our kakak sedara's place...
Upon reaching, there's like only a few of the relatives... They all come in after zohor and the tahlil finally began... After that, shook hands with those who came and had our meal... Selera macam terbantut... There's someone who looked exactly like him... I stole a glance and denied it... The 2nd time i stared and sort of meet his gaze, then my heart confirm that it wasn't him... It's been years mannn, dunno if i could ever recognise that look anymore... Apart from that, I noticed someone's presence... Lucky me, i stick with my sis and bro... After choosing the food, I'm sort of lost on where to sit... But luckily i look further and i choose to sit next to my bro... The youngest bro still look chubby and when i met his gaze, it felt like pinching his cheeks... Finished my meal and waited for a while... When I stood up and face the direction where I wanna throw the plate, that someone was like opposite of me... It's like terpandang but lucky our gaze didn't meet... Phew! When I came back, elder bro was waiting for me and he asked whether I received his text... I read it and laughed my heart out... It doesn't matter to me who's watching coz his text was hilarious... The way that someone was labelled by him... Then when he wanna shook hands with everyone, bro hid behind dad and dad's cousin so he's left with no choice... too bad... Even elder bro told me that he was like "pikir nak step cool je..."I laughed...
The most significant part was when going back time... Hafta go back to car and pass the food which the relative wanted... Auntie didn't bring it with her so it was slight chaos at one point of time when everybody's rushing to go back... I wasn't sure which one to pass to her so no choice but to meet them... Elder bro made one round at the unfamiliar block and while otw, that relative called... I dunno what made me pick up that call despite that unfamiliar number... Perhaps it's just the instinct... Auntie was there to confirm which food to pass and then shook hands with that relative... While shaking hands, I took the opportunity to give her a hug too despite that someone standing right next to her... Knowing that his gaze was on me, I just looked straight and simply ignored his presence... Way to go gurl! Ignorance is bliss mannn XD hehehehehhehe... After that, I plan to shook hands to bid farewell with his mum so i have to walk one round coz I dun wanna do the same thing... While walking to another side, the youngest chubby bro appeared in front of me and ran away... He's like wanting to play with me... I chased after him and tickeld him and pinched him too... It felt a relief to hear that laughter coming out from him... Kept making that two finger pointing at the eyes like you better watch it at the youngest bro and he did the same... When I wanna chase him again, he's already in the car so nvm... Dpt lepaskan rindu by tickling him... He's damn chubby mannn... Geram betul! It's in you to play with kids at that age... hehe... So, shook hands with the mum and dunno why the kemesraan kind of fade away... But smiling helps alot... i didn't hug her and soon they're off...
Took our stuff and we headed to see our another warga emas... She's kind of sick and we're all paying her a visit... She remind me of my late great grandma... When I touched and feel her skin, it was dry... And it felt like I wanted to help with it so that she won't scratch herself... To get that product which helps my late great grandma to reduce the itchiness... Price would be an issue i think but i guess giving a gift won't be a problem...
Alot of stories were shared especially ghost stories and we all listened closely... Had dinner outside and it felt good with a full stomach... Stomach's been growling mann... Headed home and finally i jumped onto my bed... Too exhausted to do anything ^-^ hehe
Well, actually that's about it but there's some occasion going on previously but this is the latest one lahhh... Hopefully everything will be fine and I'm living life by looking ahead... Past is history! K lahhh... I'm outta here...
Sayonara!
