It's amazing how time flies... In a blink of an eye, it's already Saturday now... Within this one week itself, alot of things happen... Which made me realise something... The desire for nursing seemed to decrease and my attention seemed to shift more to the job i'm currently in... It's pathetic when something i'm not supposed to do was caught... Felt that she appeared out of nowhere and I'm always taken aback... But when I wanna do what I'm supposed to do, she'll never be around... It's like when I've got high hopes and am prepared for it but in the end, my hopes and efforts seemed to be in vain... I'll grew tired of it and it's just the first week... First week being there and it felt like giving up... Felt that the patience and tolerance level is deteriorating... Haiz... A friend once told me that it's not easy to be one and i've the potential to be one... Gotta stay strong when tough times dun last but tough ppl do...

I'm kinda affected by this though... I saw a red lorry at the carpark near my house... When he got out, his family members all got out... Then they all came up to the 8th floor of the opp block at where I'm staying... They all appeared at the windows and all glaring at me as i was at the kitchen and the kitchen of my house face that block... I went into my room and when I go back to the kitchen, they're all still glaring at me :x Dad appeared out of nowhere and started nagging coz of his unwanted presence... I kept quiet but at the same time, my heart felt rebellious... I made my way to my room for the 2nd time and to my surprise, he was there ransacking my whole room... I asked him what he's searching for but he didn't ans... As if I could read his mind, he grab something which he gave to me... I snatched it and told him to sit... He was reluctant at first but when he saw my stubbornness, he sat... It's actually a book and i told him, why do you have to spoil everything when i plan to give it back on your birthday? He just look me in the eye and smile... Den I woke up... Seriously, it was extremely unpredictable that I dream of him :X

I was told that it's just a dream but am I being paranoid if I say that whatever dreams that I had, they always meant something... Like he's giving me the key to a secret that something's gonna happen... It's like a good and bad thing at the same time... And even in this religion of mine, we could believe in dreams... Ouh well... Guess I've got better things to think and worry so I'll drop this subject...

The last day of the week was AWESOME though... There's not many fairies around but the angels are overloaded... There's alot of laughter going on and for once it felt like I belong there and they're the ones who made my day... Despite the fact that my stomach's hurt and them asking for this and that, lucky me I'm able to stay strong... Seems like it hurts coz it's hungry and lack water n_n hehe... It was better after break... And time really really really really fly swiftly after that... Nothing to do we did that on each other and it's not a surprise if my blood presure was low... It's always been low anyway... And... I made a new friend! Someone friendly, lively, jokes around, cheerful and playful too... But it's sad as it's her last day... But nvm, I've already got her contact and we'll just keep in touch =) It's cool how you became friends with anyone... Just start smiling, ask questions and there you go... Just open up as much to the person and they'll do the same... It's in your nature I guess... Open and friendly...

Next week schedule was pretty pathetic but what to do... I'll get used to it... Then I have to prepare myself to do what I'm supposed to do... Yeahhh... Have to get back what you've lost... Half the battle won already... When there's a will, there's a way... Thanks ppl to those who never fail to make my day! =)

Gtg... Sayonara!