Phew! It felt like a heavy burden was off my load mann! After all that had happened, I'm glad that it's all in the past... Mm hmmm... Today was the end of it and also a new beginning... Behavioural Science test was FINALLY over! Phase test was over... Religious exams are over! YAY!!!! Most of it were okay... I gave it my all except for my phase test... I wasn't in a good condition then the thoughts of her slipped my mind... I could still reminisce those days we had... The teacher who took me for the test also notice it... I entered the room wearing a jacket... She realised I wasn't well... Den when I told her bout my late great grandma, she was like "oh dear! why don't you take another day? Like this it really affect your performance..." I'm like "errrr..." I dun wanna drag it mann... Just wanna get it done... Guess I'm okay with this phase test... But she told me to read more coz most of the answers I gave was not good 0.0 like DUH! the answers are all like anyhowanswer.com >.<

Seriously, it felt like I'm breathing once again... After what had happened... It's like EXTREMELY crucial and brain is like at any moment it could explode... Imagine getting the news that your loved one left the world already and the following days you have test and exam coming up... You know you can't run away from it and there's no other choice than to face it... The challenge is like so WOW lahhh... To reflect back, I'll smile and give myself a pat coz I made it through... Stood on my own feet and just move on... Like I've grown... Just like a leo... Strength at heart =)) hehe... Just like a leo... Being independent... Just like a leo... Stubborn at something when determined to get it done... And the never changing principles...I'm glad I've got dearies who guided me through it all...

It's all in the past already... Experience taught me alot... I'm proud to say I've turned to someone heartless... Little things won't make me cry... Huge things didn't make me cry too unless if it's really too much... It's been a worthwhile journey... Though there's many events involving the emotions, I'm glad I stayed focus and bounced back at the right time... Like no point pondering about the past as no tears could make things as it was before... The present... Today was a good day... Everything was smooth at the beginning and I've got the feeling that I'll manage the test... I did it! I was smiling while answering the questions... Alhamdulillah =)) I enjoyed laughing during CN lesson today... Seriously... He was a joker sia! He made everyone laughed till their cheeks were cramp and I could feel myself turning red in the face... Even our class advisor who RARELY laugh... Repeat that again ehhh, RARELY laugh, laughed sheepishly... And it seemed nice to see her smile and laugh... It's like the stress look written all over her face was gone... It was a surprise... I'm glad that it all turn out fine...

As for my dear friend... Gurl, stay strong alrighty... Have faith... Perhaps it's not meant to be... I'm glad you went through it coz it taught you... That's the way they are... Empty promises, broken promises... When a girl surrendered her heart for a guy, the guy will break it... The guy will always take advantage of it, play around with the heart and lastly, smashed it like letting it shattered into pieces... Once they've done that, they'll proceed to the next gurl who'll become the next victim... And they're always a KING of SWEET TALK... Which made girls think "awwwwwhhh, so sweet right... Awwwwwwwwhh, i'm touched... You're so romantic... Dear, I love you...." Like jbgskahnvcvklsghajhlvmdn?! Pathetic lahhh... Such things seems common these days... Cliche already... Then when the girl is annoyed with the guy, the guy will console the girl with lotsa gifts; teddy bear lahhh, flowers lahhh, jewellery lahhh, shoes lahhh, bags lahhh, clothes lahhh and many other items lahhh XD and as girls because of their soft spot, the guy would be forgiven... Next few days, they quarrel and then landed in the same situation... It's like a cycle you know... Move on with life girl... You deserve someone better... That someone will come along one day... Time will tell everything... Just be patient... Hopefully you learn from this...

Tomorrow we'll be pricking each other... Can't wait for it mannn... Lessons are getting exciting and alot of fun these days and I'm looking forward to it... Hopefully it'll be another good day as it's the last day of the week! YIPEEEEEEEE! The last day of the week and we'll go home early... Have to take a break mannn... Spend some quality time alone... Hopefully everything will be okay... Insya allah =)

I'm so over it... Made the decision to hate him for the rest of my life... I'm determined enough to make him my enemy... You're just a hopeless case... Never gonna turn back coz you're history... Thanks mannn... For the rest of my life, I'm gonna close this heart... I'm gonna turn heartless unless if there's a soul out there who could handle me... I vowed not to be in a relationship... They're so typical, immature jerks who won't understand... Hating you to the core will be a new beginning... I'll make it through... Time to show that devil side of mine... All the best gurl for the revenge =))

Gtg... It's been a long post... Sayonara!