Happen to browse through you tube and stumble upon this song by 2PM without you... Kinda brought back those memories mannn... The lyrics are DEFINITELY meaningful... I can't refrain myself from listening to it over and over again...
*Without U*
I'm gonna be strong
It's okay that we broke up, after all being with you
I think it wasn't right, I think you were obviously like that
Rather than that, do you know I fell deeply in love
I think luckily it's not like that, so I'm ok
I gave you my everything unsparingly
believing in you so I gave you my everything
you threw it away
I gave you my everything
So I'm gonna be okay
I'm gonna be okay
I'll be okay
Gonna be okay
Baby without you
Without you
Baby without you
Without you
Without you, I'll be cooler
More cooler
I'll get up, I'll live on
Without you
I'll live on
Without you
Listen, everything happens for a reason
Everything happens for a reason
This is the last time you'll meet another man
Your words don't even make sense
Just turn around
It hurts me too much
I don't want to see you anymore
I was being fooled all this while
I didn't even know who you were
But I know now
You don't know love
So that's why I'm gonna be okay
Gonna be okay
I'll be okay
Gonna be okay
Baby without you
Without you
Baby without you
Without you
Without you, I'll be cooler
More cooler
I'm going to stand up
Without you
I'll live on
Without you
Why are you doing this to me, why?
It was so wrong that you had to throw away everything we had, right?
All of the times we were together
And the times we can never be together again
Aren't you even sorry?
Does it not matter to you?
Even now, are you okay without me?
I'm gonna be okay
Gonna be okay
I'll be okay
Gonna be okay
Baby without you
Without you
Baby without you
Without you
Without you, I'll be cooler
More cooler
I'm going to stand up
Without you
I'll live on
Without you
It's been a while since i last ponder bout it... The very first time our eyes met, I felt that ur different from any other typical ones... Then your lips gradually smiled... I was speechless upon seeing that smile... Never did I expect myself to be in that condition... Usually I won't easily fall for anyone... This kind of thing is unexplainable... I denied it... Hide my emotions pretty well... Know myself that I should never be close to you... But as they are busy with their own things, I happen to turn to you... And you've been there... Not only help but guidance and the friendship... though sometimes I felt like running away... It seems like when you're so close yet so far... You're sitting right next to me but it seems difficult to reach out... I told myself countless times that it's impossible for me to fall for someone like you coz you definitely have someone else in mind... And also because of your character which was your weakness but everyone have their weaknesses... We were close... I was surprised myself that you were there each time I needed help but when others needed help, it's very difficult for them to get it from you... Still remember the time when there's nobody who could help me... Then I called on you and you helped me... I owe you alot mannn... But at least I did return the favours... Glad you like what I gave you... And another thing which touched my heart was you were there too on my special day... It seems that that empty space was filled by you... You being there is enough for me... You were just next to me and singing the happy birthday song happily... Then when playing pool, you really really really guided me all along and with your guidance, i managed to score =)) thanks dude! It all becomes a memory now... It kinda stabbed the heart when ur forgotten but nvm... I'll hold the memory close to my heart... At least it happened once and I'm also glad that my dream did come true... It's all because of you but I guess now with your absence, I'll be okay...
As for the other person... I'm so over it... Whatever you wanna do just do... I've learnt alot during that journey... It's bitter sweet I dare say... I just couldn't get angry at you because love conquers all... And each time we teased and joke, u'd always give in... Then ur the only one who saw me cried... Though I tried not to but that's one of my weakness... You were there to calm me down and I managed to regain my composure... It was a fast one... At least the feeling was genuine and I knew that it was true happiness... Till one day the truth reveals... It stabbed right through the heart... Tears cascade down my cheeks and I was emotionally hurt... Internally... To the extent that I did a silly thing like slitting of wrist? And I still dun feel the pain coz it can't be compared with the pain which is being stabbed right into the heart... Fortunately, I came to my senses... I accept the fact and just move on... Even if there's still slight feelings for him, life goes on...
He came back and asked for a second chance... I still had the trust for him... Still believed that he might change... Still wanting those moments we had together... But soon with HIS guidance, in reality i soon grew tired of it... So it's best for both of us to just split...
From then on I began to have that defensive nature towards guys... It's difficult for me to open up to another because it's unnecessary now... It'll be best if I could just focus on my studies first... I can't handle anymore at the moment... Work seems to fill me completely... It's pretty disgusting to see couples in streets... It's like "uhhhhh... what's the necessity of having one when a person isn't ready?" It's like so common already... With all the challenges that I'm facing, it's more than enough but to add on one more, no way... Now's not the time... Friends are more than enough and I do have dearest and beloved friends surrounding me so I'm satisfied and blessed with what I have... Sometimes ignorance rings through... Hope is not in what I know, not in me it's in you... So i'll let fate decides what's best for me... I've surrendered everything to HIM... All this has been the BEST experience so far... Despite the pain, in the end there's happiness and I never regret anything I did coz whatever I did was whatever I wanna do in the first place...
Kae den... Enough said... Gotta go have my rest...
Sayonara!
