I dunno how I should feel right now... It's just too difficult to love someone... My heart is cold plus it's heartless... I dunno how to handle it mannn... It's excruciating the soul to the extend that it felt like i'm drowning... Just that this song explains it all...
Dreamz FM -Should I stay
Had a drive
Driven by your love
When you messed around
I lost the drive I found
Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?
Wish you'd been careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart
The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am living proof of what love is about
IT'S HARD HOLDING YOU
LOVING YOU, LOSING YOU
IT'S SAD TO BE TRUE
AND BE FOOLED BY YOU
I DON'T KNOW (I DON'T KNOW)
I GOTTA KNOW
SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO?
You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Even though I'm down
My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I'm so amused
That you're still in my thoughts
IT'S HARD HOLDING YOU
LOVING YOU, LOSING YOU
IT'S SAD TO BE TRUE
AND BE FOOLED BY YOU
I DON'T KNOW (I DON'T KNOW)
I GOTTA KNOW
SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO?
should i stay
should i go.....?
IT'S HARD HOLDING YOU
LOVING YOU, LOSING YOU
IT'S SAD TO BE TRUE
AND BE FOOLED BY YOU
I DON'T KNOW (I DON'T KNOW)
I WANNA KNOW
SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I .....?
This time is done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same
I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were living proof of what love is about....
Seriously, my mind is in a whirl... He's just tooooo different... I dunno if I'll ever accept who he is... At times it felt scary... At times it felt secured... At times it felt like he was being possessive... How does it feel like to have someone checking on you? How does it feel like if someone were to check who called you... who text you... And especially if it's a guy... It'll be worse... The questions will leave to no ending... So much probing and stuff... I really need a break... I need my space... I need my privacy... I can't open up just like that within a day... I need time... Time to also learn how to love again...
Awk... How come you're always in my mind despite the things that you've done to me? How come you won't check on me..? How come you're always so understanding and always giving in to my wants? How come I can't seem to accept the fact that it's not meant to be and still think of you even though it's been 4 years plus? How come it's so difficult to let the thoughts of you slipped my mind? How come you're not as straight forward as him? How come you allow me to have the freedom of choice to pick whoever my friends are? How come you trust me so much but in the end betrayed it? Guess that's why they say 1st love is the best...
I'm scared... A friendship is gone just like that... It's like when you came into the picture, you decide to control everything... and seriously... i mean EVERYTHING... Being stubborn is your number one... You rarely listen to what I've got to say... It's like everything's the opposite of me... How shall I move on from here? Someone please guide me.......
It's been a long post... gtg...
Sayonara!
