Guess it's already up... I've been thinking deeply bout it... It was tough to make the decision... Either you follow your way or listen to what was being told... Every ending has a new beginning and every beginning has a new ending... Each sacrifice has its consequences... I was told to put it in my hands and not the heart... I was told that it's been a misery... I was told that it would cause me pain, disappointment and hurt... I was told to end it... On the contrary, I was told that the problems aren't problems but it's challenges... I was told that "FAITH" is the most powerful word ever... I was told that I shouldn't give up coz of the potential within... I was told to continue fighting for it... The burning desire gradually fades... It drove me crazy to the extent that I couldn't think of the proper solution...
I dun even know myself... I dun even know if good things were meant to be good... Some good things has its underlying means... It's complicated... Even though helping others is a good thing, there are man other factors which is yet to be considered... I dun even know that I've been fighting for a position which I doubt... I've been pondering bout it all along... It's kinda ironic in a sense to want something badly but didn't go for it... No matter how much i strive, will this spirit remain as it is? Strong and optimistic as ever? there are those times when I do crumble into sand and fall but it doesn't matter... What matters is how one picks themselves up after a fall... As human beings, nobody's perfect... So ppl have to focus on improving and how to get better and better...
If I were to stop, it'll be as if I've quit... Which isn't good coz quitters nvr win and winners never quit... If I were to continue, it'll be like I'm finding more challenges for the excruciating soul... So it's like I'm in the middle with a question mark on top of my head... Which direction should I go? To make decisions... It's supposedly to follow the brain not the heart... After much thinking, it seems that there's some rational behind it... But to make a choice by following your heart, it's more like you're using your emotions to make the choice... So, what shall it be? Has it come to an end?
They say that if you love something, set it free... If it is meant to be, it'll definitely come back... I'm told to not go with the flow either... Coz life is like you becoming the pilot of an aeroplane... It's you who control the plane to reach the destination... It's you who made the choice on what button to press to allow the plane to manouever... So if we go with the flow, it's like allowing the events to control our life... When supposedly, it's suppose to be us controlling our life... I'm still neutral on what's been happening lately... Not entirely convinced even though I've been to T.An Shah's secrets to the millionaire mind session >.<
Well, it's all in the blueprint... Mm hmmm... Guess I should get ready coz there's a delivery to be done soon... Hopefully today will be okay...
