My results was unexpected but I got into the course i wanna be =)) I'm ecstatic of course! XD hehe... though the journey's gonna be long, it seems pretty worthwhile... Hafta look forward to life... Life now revolves around rotting at home, reading eng and malay books, watching tv, watching dvd's repeatedly, cooking, visitting great grandma and grandpa... Not forgetting... Eating, drinking and more BIG business ^-^ hehe... At this rate, at times I'm occupied... though it is a mudane life, it's pretty worthwhile... From all these experiences, I'll be able to bring it to the course i'm pursuing in april... Which is in 2 months time x-x Waiting for sch to start is a torture... I felt all the excitement within me and sometimes, adrenaline rush ^-^ a very enthu spirit you've got there even though it's in two months time *giggles* In spite of the long hours, 8am till 6pm, I'd rather be somewhere experiencing difficulty as compared to easy-bility n_n hehe... Macam paham je!
Of course mannnn... I've made a new friend that wonderful day too... While waiting to be interviewed... She was older than me plus friendly too... It's nice to know someone who'll be going to the same school as you at the right moment... the situation on the first day of school won't be awkward or even feeling lost... We had some first conversations you will have when u started to hit off... It was a pleasant feeling... so after the interview, we changed numbers and keep in touch... It's astounding as how a friendship could occur... Just a warm smile and acknowledging the other party, a conversation will definitely start...
As for today's story... It was unexpected... It was beyond words... i dunno what to say... In fact, I was speechless... Despite feeling that, I smiled otw back home... Smiled to myself... How small this world could turn out... I guess I was prepared to face it... I found myself weird to feel that way... Saw him with someone else... Seemed to be having a wonderful time together... As for me, I began to quicken my pace and just thought of reaching home soon... But then, it also felt as if I should move on too... I could hear the thoughts in my mind to embrace myself and thanks to Yang Maha Esa for opening my eyes... Bukan mata panca-indra but mata hati... I've vowed to be anti guys... Not being lesbians but I'll be more careful and not to sheepishly fall for typical guys... Some part of me felt like I'm lost without my once gurlfrenz but since it's over... I'll focus on those I am still in touch with... You know who you are *winkz*All I could say that what's past is in the past... It's been history and yeahhh... Sometimes one have to learn to let go of what they love... If it's meant to be, it will come back to you... no pain, no gain... At first, it hurts but time will definitely heal everything... So what's the point of clinging onto something that was never meant to be... Anw, just dun let the past destroys what comes tomorrow... You'll find someone better...
Cuzzins are already in perth and it's just a day... I missed them loads mannn =x Like today, when I was outside, I happened to sense their scent and their shadows following me... Though they're not with me, it's just that they're really close to my heart... And this time round, I'm glad we get to spend time together... It was the best when cuzzins are around... My free time will be occupied with their presence... We'd hang out together, tease each other, share stories and most importantly, just have
FUN! I really enjoyed their companion... It was unexpected too that I seem to open up to them... Though sometimes there are quiet moments among us, it wasn't awkward but more to peacefulness... Well, the happiness that we shared will be embedded in my heart forever... As they're the best cuz anyone could ask for... Love ya, cuzzies!!!! *giggles*
K denn... It's been a long post... I'm outta here...
Signing Off
Haneesah
