Sunday, November 22, 2009; what to do.............?
Those words kept on playing in my mind like a tape recording rewinding endlessly... It's driving me crazy to the extent that I can't find the right choice to decide what's best... Dearest frenz told me to let go but I dunno why I seem to find something that is worth holding on in spite of its worthless-NESS... I'm stuck... The hurt that you've caused kept on haunting me... I dunno where this will lead me to... It drained this excruciating soul to the extent that the soul struggling to stay strong even though it was lost in the thoughts... Hmmmm... It's obvious that you've change to someone I dun even know... Someone whom I can't believe that it's you... Someone whom I tried to accept... These days... Tears kept on cascading uncontrollably when the thoughts of you crossed my mind... Happiness seems like a facade in my life... But just today, I belonged to this group known as "DSY", I felt joy all over me... I burst into laughter with all the jokes, teasing and crappy moments... For once, it felt like it's been way too long... Way toooooooooooooooooooooooooo long that I've laughed to my heart's content... It felt like I'm over it... But when I'm otw back home, my mind kept on pondering bout it... How irony it seems to be... Y'd ask such a question? I've got better things to do rather than doing such thing... And it's so NOT like me to do such thing... Guess all along, you dunno me that well... It's EXTREMELY easy to predict someone's thoughts but for anybody to predict someone's thoughts seems so difficult for anybody... IS THAT WHAT GOOD FRIENDS REALLY ARE? haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... When i thought that u were my buddy... When I thought that it's all build upon trust... When I thought that we could easily share our thoughts... When I thought that I've shown empathy for your part... It just proves one thing... My thoughts were WRONG =/ while now.......... It's all GONE *sigh* Afterall, it seems like you're tooooooooooooo GOOD for me... Ouh well... Hopefully he'd show me the right path to the right choice... Remember, he's always there... All i need is his guidance and I hope that this pain would end coz it sux to be in this state as every ending has its beginning... Looking forward to the days to come ^-^ HONG KONG, HERE i COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =DD
11/22/2009