Now is 4.35am and ur eyes are not even glued when it's supposed to x_x it just seems difficult to sleep... Perhaps insomnia... Or perhaps something that's bothering you... Something which slipped through your mind... A wise person once told me that emotions could drive one crazy... Emotions have to be controlled... Somehow or rather, it is agreeable...
Though it's already in the past... Sometimes I do longed for those times we once had... Those days seems like the best moments of my life... No words could describe the happiness I felt when I was with you... Perhaps I'm still clinging on to you... Letting go is never easy... At times, i tried to accept the fact but i can't refrain myself from pondering bout those moments we had... You come and go just like the rainbow... There's no shine but you sparkle... In the end, what's left behind were the broken promises... The hearts bleeds internally despite putting up a smile on the face... A deep scar seemed to be embedded in the heart to the extent that there's no more room for love... I had memorable moments and also bittersweet ones... Taught me how powerful and painful the feeling is like... How the person could influence ur thoughts... Still, we often thrive on negative thoughts which is inevitable... My tears are dried up... Deep down, I do miss you to the extent that I wanna scream my lungs out or cry... Letting the tears flow... Even though I know that it isn't worth my tears, I can't help it... It's one of those illness that could drive one to go insane... No matter what, tears would not change anything... It'll just make u feel worse... So the thing now is to stay happy... I get sidetracked easily these days... O's are done with and sometimes I'd tend to be lost in my own thoughts... Thinking... Wondering... What's gonna happen in time to come... What have i spent my 17 yrs of life on... I've gained experience, knowledge and still trying to stay optimistic... I can't possibly let anything pull me down... Just doesn't seem so right... There are other perspectives in life... Mm hmm... Just like how time flies... I can't believe myself turning 18 next year... It's just like yesterday when I was a child so innocent yet dunno nothing bout life...
Guess I'll stop blabbering here... Better try and get some rest...
~cheerios