It's a saturday and i've to go school for some rehearsal for DL investiture... At first I felt no motivation at all to even drag my feet to school... But suddenly there's this voice within me which whispered, perhaps something was bound to occur today so happily I went to school with lotsa hopes... But then, it was destroyed when it was unexpected... Haiz... At that point of time, I just felt like running away, go somewhere far far away and scream my lungs out... But there's this conscience in me which told me to be patient and hold on till u can't take it and u managed to do so... Congrats to the facade that u managed to show behind that smile...

All along, she's been trying her best not to behave awkwardly or whatsoever... She didn't distant herself from them... She followed them to where they wanted to go and her buddy was delighted that she tagged along... But then...

Never did she expect that they would stay silent about it... It seeme like any other normal day... Nothing much... Hati macam terdetik what's wrong with them since they're her closest buddy but... Perhaps she expected too much coz she did that before to them but she also had her own reasons... This time round, she felt what they really felt before and it hurts... Though she managed to pull thru and embraced herself, her tolerance level began to drop by the time she reached home... Lucky bro was around, he gave me a present... In fact, presents came from family members... At that point of time, she dun wanna stay at home... She thought that perhaps after the rehearsal she could spend time with them but after the kecoh-NESS it seems impossible... So they went on their separate ways and she suddenly felt so lonely... As she reached home, the tears cascade... But that wasn't for long when she spent some quality time ALONE on her birthday... Lucky her handphone is with her, her one and only entertainer... She hang around herself feeling rather pathetic and lethargic with the crowd at the place she was in... Each step she took, she breathed deeply and tried to control her composure from breaking down in front of the crowds... Nvm, she told herself... It wasn't her day after all *sobz* But lucky her, someone she'd never expected to msg did wish her happy birthday despite his number being changed... She was careful not to prolong the conversation though she was enjoying his smses that did somehow or rather cheer her up... Anywaez, it's okayyy... She’s fine now, they called n wished her... Though how she’d wish she'd never have to face all this...

Thanks to those peeps who wished me and those presents from you know who you are too =))

I'm outta here

~cheerios