She's gotta let it all out... She has got so many things in her mind but who else doesn't? Mainly because it's family matters which seems rather personal that affects her... She's gotta stop that emotion from coming... It isn't a surprise to worry because of her loved ones whom she treasured the most... Thinking of them makes her heart ache and her tears will cascade since she feels hopeless coz she can't be by their side whenever she wants to coz of other responsibilities... At times, she can't get them out of her mind... And this thing kinda affect her studies =/ haiz... She dun have much of a choice except to pray for their well beings... Hopefully they'll be safe coz suddenly today, she miss her alot... She miss her to the extent that she wondered how will she be like after fasting... She will be remembered in my prayers... Coz it's been like more than one month since she last visited her... It's just a call away but she ain't sure of her number... This could be an excuse coz she could ask those who know but her worries for her academic is much more than all this... It's just in a matter of fact that she might explode, breakdown or even do something silly...
On top of this, she's got other matters to take hold of... For instance, homework is piling up... Prelims is just around the corner and O level english oral is in a few days time... She will put in effort and push herself... Hopefully she will get those results... It's too much of a disappoinment to deteriorate... She never meant to ignore... Just that her lack of practice coz she thought that she could develop her ideas instantly but NO WAY! So... It's time, GO and PRACTICE!!! =D
Who will she run to? She’s scared that what she ought to say will affect the other party… But it isn’t good to bottle things up… She knows that… Whatever it is, I dun bother laaa… If that’s what makes u content, go ahead with it… Just because of that you cried and attract attention… Realise your mistakes and start working harder… Too much drama happening there… If whoever feels that this refers to her, it’s good that perhaps she might want to change her ways and stop playing a fool… At times, she could be the motivator but at times, she really needs to get a source to motivate her… Since he disappeared from her life and she realised he’s gone, she seems to change… She’s not that strong anymore to face all those… Her heart is fragile despite showing a strong front… She still need the encouragement and the ability to persevere throughout this journey… She already felt the pressure… Each day, it drained her excruciating and lethargic soul… Guess she really depends on his presence too much that when he’s gone, she’s lost… What she really gotta do now is STOP worrying and start improving… Focus on getting better and better… She knows she can do it… She have to stay focus throughout the last few months and have that determination to strive harder… She have to have that faith in herself, be confident and stay optimistic… Cheer up! Many things to settle... I'm outta here...
~cheerios
