*sigh* izzit all worthwhile to feel remorse after what had happen? Ouh well... Even if you were to turn back time, will things be the same? Like before? Nvm, I'll get straight to the point since I'm not sure what I'm blabbering about n_n brain's like gonna explode if i were to think of this too much... Certain things that's meant to be momories, whether sweet or bitter are rather painful... Just like how one can get too familiar to be in love...
As I was on the way back to reach home today from the mosque, I kept pondering bout those days... It all came back to me... Haunt me as if it's a mistake that's unforgivable... Why most those memories affect me too much since it's all in the past? Am i still clinging on it or no... Hoping for a miracle to get that replacement which i doubt there is coz the heart died long time ago... Love never exist coz even watching any sad and emotional show/movie, you won't be affected... Thought I was beaten before... By my own conscience... And now it seems to bother me, dragging me down... I've never thought so much bout this before until recently despite it being redundent now... Then there's the regretful part... Some that you ought to do, have yet to do, not fulfilled yet... Perhaps that's what they meant, "Live life to its fullest and never have regrets..." Despite knowing ur not supposed to be wondering bout all this, shouldn't you be worrying bout more major events in ur daily lives and not get sidetracked? but how'd you refrain urself from not wondering too much when ur mind's blank =// *sigh*Being busy helps... But too busy will just drain the energy... No words could describe the excruciating soul carrying out such heavy responsibilities... To be in 2 places... To make a difference and bring out that smile that was once lost... To be a listening ear and to understand the situations... Time never wait for anyone... I don't need anything more to be committed or tied down... To have such responsibilities is more than enough... I'm not bragging or whining, just stating out everything that's been bottling deep within... Though it feels like taking a break, a stroll somewhere for some fresh air seems impossible with the current life now... It's all so happening that u've gotta race thru time... It's really been a tough journey... To persevere, have the determination... To stand up after a fall is all within an individual... Afterall, a person's life is based on their own choices made...
These june holidays is gonna fly by... Hopefully, the motivation still burns... Continue to strive harder and you'll make it thru =)) come on! brace urself, dun let anything jeopardise ur studies... Rest assured, you'll manage it and everything's gonna be fine...
~cheerios
