IT'S OVER =/
I never knew this would happen... It's rather disappointing... I'm really really really trying to keep calm but @ times, things dun go ur way so... What to do? Mm hmm... The pessimistic her is back... Haiz...
I hate to feel such way... Whereby I dun get it! Who's breaking up the friendship when it states that it's up to me whether I wanna break it? What are u trying to say?! Of all times, why must it be now? When it's the same day I'll try to let go of someone... 2 ppl on the same day... How much more can I handle? I was at the verge of breaking down just now... Did you know how much you mean to me? Did you know I'll do anything for you? I'm sorry I couldn't understand you but did you every make me understand you? When everytime, I ask,u'd rather want me to find out myself... How could I possibly understand? Why discard the friendship that last for 4 yrs+ oready? It wasn't my decision to break it up... I dun want this to happen! Seriously, and that's the only way out ehh? To putuskan persahabatan demi kebaikan orang lain? Siape? @ times, competing with a fren is good enough, to increase the motivation... HAve you seen it in such a way? True u influence me, but dun friends share the same interests at heart too?! I've NEVER regard you as an enemy... It never crossed my mind before =// so much of u n someone else being my true friend ehh... Where does all that go now? So, it's simply saying it's all BULLS***?!
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us around n will the memories fade away that easily? I hate myself for letting this small matter get to me... I've told myself countless times to take it to the brain n not the heart but when matters of feelings is concerned, it's difficult... Tell me how do you hate a person when you like him,her? Tell me how do you forget a person whom you consider a stranger to you? It's really complex n difficult... The mindset says so but it isn't impossible...
Gurl... Get a grip of yourself! This year is a crucial year... Focus on ur O-levels and those who treasure you... Those who can't accept you, then they're just not your friends *sigh* It's really a disappointment... As for now, it's a relief coz I let it all out oready... Phew!
Ouh well... I can't blog any longer... Gotta go to sch for my Focus camp! Hope ^^ will not affect my attitude during camp... Hopefully, I've got the strength to face this all... Seriosuly, it's like a huge huge hue gigantic and enormous rock that was hurled to ur heart... The pain is unbearable... Someone pls, save me from all this...
