Wasn't looking forward to sch today... I didn't have enough rest and was like a sleepyhead @ times, yawning uncontrollably =// still, i manage to squint my eyes n paid attention in class... Even my partner mentioned that even though I dun have enough sleep, I could still be enthu =.= Ouh well... I wasn't being myself today... I was moody all along... When ppl laugh @ the slightest thing, I only chuckled... Perhaps of the lack of sleep that keeps bugging me... I kinda get irritated @ the slightest thing... Especially during art... I was extremely restless... I moved about, and my mouth kept on yawning... My eyes were getting heavy and any moment I knew I'll fall asleep... Suddenly, there's this voice inside of me, encouraging me... By then I was slightly awake... Also, was not looking forward to npcc too... Haiz... What's wrong with her?!

Hmm... It wasn't intentional when I hurled those words @ you... I was pissed off, though u apologised, @ that time I was sick of it... It's okay if it's just 2-3 tims but it's like nealry 5-6 times my boots was being stepped on... Furthermore, it's @ the back whereby the sole did came out before... I'm sorry if it did made u cry but I didn't mean to... I was irritated... Sick and tired of it... My tiredness brings me down... However... When the zephyr blew across my face, this thought came to me,"love is like the wind, u can't see it but u can feel it" to calm myself down, I breathed heavily n exhaled slowly... It helps =)) I began to feel @ ease then...


For the very first time, it seems like GOH training was tough... HAving no water breaks and practice to master our drills and all... Everyone was tired but continued to persevere... No water breaks @ all for 2 practices... Perhaps this seems like whining but I'm sorry I can't help it... @ that time, I was feeling lethargic... My body dun wanna push myself to the limit but my mind forced me to... Moreover, I went for training with an empty stomach... Having lack of sleep the previous day... My instincts did tell me that I can't make it for GOH training but... I pulled thru and did it =DDD

When being told that we could smile for all the hard effort put in, i saw smiles all around but I was forcing out that smile... Maybe @ that time, the tiredness got me... Apart from this, we, GOH trained whereas the other CCA's were dismissed... I was drained out but continue to hold on...

I can't believe myself to say such thing... Perhaps I dun even realise what I'm saying or so... Ouh well... MY brain is being switched off and lucky me... THis time round, no more were there teasing or disturbance... If not, I'll be extremely pissed just by certain things >.<>

Dun wanna be in this condition whereby I dun even know who I'm turning to be... Gotta stay optimistic =)) hopefully, this feeling would be gone just like the wind ^-^

I'm outta here... GTg...

~cheerios