Finally?! Npcc camp had ended... Today was the day... Today was the day I went off early coz of religious class... Today was the day I get to know it... Hmm... Overall, it seems like a good experience... @ first I had doubts bout going for it... But 2 of my best buddies went, they influence me so I decided to go for it... Despite knowing that we'll take responsibilities for everything, being reprimanded n facing all the odds, a voice in me motivated me to go for it...
1st day of camp seemed rather pathetic... NCO's weren't clear of their roles... 1st in the list, was amazing race... Time seems to slow down during camps... Dun wish to elaborate more on this... Then there's other activities which I'm rather lazy to state down... My spirits wasn't lifted yet... Only when the game double wacko n dog n bone...
I heard a name being called... Regained my composure n remaind expressionless... Only with the cadets hilarious moments, I laughed... They looked rather cute running from one direction to another... @ times, I did glance but @ other times, I simply ignored his presence... Until he strolled behind where I fall in my group n came to a halt... Was wondering what he did but when anisa told me, i burst out laughing... She caught him standing behind me n was shoo-ing something like a mosquito to let it fly towards her... That sounds rather weird... It's like macam takde kerja lain nak buat =.= Good thing was when I stole a look at him, it felt like laughing... But that's kinda evil XD soon after, he went off when we're given break... Terus bayang-bayang dah tak nampak =/Dinner was next... Followed by preparation of Operation "DUCK"... I looked forward to this activity coz it's one of the reason that I went for camp =PP hehe... So yeah... My task was to make sounds, noise n then shine light to inform the cadets that they're at the ending point oready... some others played the roles of being the ghost... Was kinda fun but it wasn't that scary... Surprisingly, it's the guys who're afraid of these "ghost" n not many girls were XD instead, it's us who scared them more n_n n the screaming came from us... Can say that it was a success... Nvr thought we'd be this team who could overcome all odds and work with each other... Expect the unexpected ^-^ Soon, good times come to an end... We got feedback that it was good and average... Better than nothing... Helped out to clear everything that we set up for the haunted house... Otw back to the canteen, noticed that there were voices coming from the hall... A line of lyrics that I've heard before which sounded familiar... It's the song "lucky" and "i'm yours"... Suddenly, I was in the mood to sing so I sang to myself n_n
The NCO's were debrief and we received lots of feedback and advice and also solutions to some problems... I thought it never lasts coz he's around n he'll simply cut someone's point of view... And I doubt anyone was listening =P hehe... from her expression, i can tell that she's getting pissed off XP nvm bout that... One by one, the sirs n mam pointed out what can be improved...
You're around... The only thing that seem cool was the cap ur wearing... the rest look plain simple n a lil weird =PP hehe... Stayed for a while n then off u go to dunno where... After the debrief, it seemed rather kecoh coz have to settle some stuff... And then there u are... lumbering at the pathway... seems like in a daze n looked rather lost... Also like patrolling... bila dah penat, duduk kat umbrella area... den after that, safirah n i carry the items to the staff room... no other choice but to request for him to help us since he's the only one in the staff room... Safirah questioned him where to put the stuff... his reply was like "hah?!" XD tak sangka blur2 juga dia =PP hehe... We're shown a place to put the stuff n then safirah said a wod of thanks... As for me, I went speechess n ran along n_n hehe... still, i kinda heard footsteps behind me... Ouh well... @ least he's around ^-^Took our own time to settle down... Had a wash all that... And it ended up with anisa n I laughing with the stories that we share... We placed badges at our uniforms and then, we lie down... There's a long pause between us n without realising... we're asleep... Sempat juga solat... Just feel that it's rather swayyyy.... Still, with the strength i had, continued to persevere...
Woke up in the morning... With a red nose... Haiyooo... What else if not me having flu... Perhaps it's like some kind of retribution... And it's the running nose which blocks the ear... As the fluid flows continuously... Haiz... But still, have to be prepared... Mm hmm... An important event will take place... Worse still, I wasn't prepared... And I wasn't looking forward to it @ all... I know myself... What's more bout MOI... The command I'm given to teach was bersurai... My standard was more to the corpral/sergeant standard when teaching the command... Very pathetic... Well, never cared bout ranks actually... @ that time, the flu i had subsidised and i'm oready blushing... Blushing as in the intense of heat made my cheeks red...
Also very swayyy on the 2nd day of camp... When I'm with my group, it feels like an outsider... I do bond with them but there's this empty feeling in me that made me think of such a way... 2nd day was pretty busy with running everywhere... and also working with each other... The team spirit my members had was pretty dull... @ least when I heard her saying, "haneesah, jgn cair eh..." My spirits were lifted... But that was only for a few moments *sigh*
Luckily, when I've got the time for preparation I went for prayers... To calm myself down n let everything out to
ONE n ONLY, the ALMIGHTY ^-^ I've succumbed myself to fate... I've hoped for a better day n expected some changes... To pull myself thru everything n be more serene... It felt better after letting it all out... For a moment, I breakdown... Still, all those emotions began to form... I'm more angry at myself for letting it affect me... Haiz... Overall, it's only me, myself n I to be blamed...
Campfire preparation made me realise that one can do little but together we can do so much... Coz when all the NCO's plays a part in handling the logistics, it seems like we've made it... We've all come together, keep together n work together... It's a success... A sense of satisfaction wrapped me like a blanket... I was amazed n delightful that we could be such a team... I nearly forget that a conflict occurred n i thought it'll affect the frienship we had... But soon, everything's forgiven n forget... And it reminded me of the past... The time when hornbills 09 reached the peak of the mountain not as an idividual but as a group... The encouragement and motivation to persevere was strong enough to gurantee that we'll never fall... Despite some being unwell, they still wanna carry out their task... When they're inform to rest for a while, they did but it wasn't too long a rest, they continued... Coz they know that we all have to work together n they're needed... It's the same feeling one will feel when everything works our way n runs smoothly... Furthermore, nobody whined or grumbled but carry out the task dutifully... There's effective communication and understanding between us all... Also, we bond better with the sirs... Especially sir sham who's been known as "monkey" =PPP hehe... NCO's performed a song dedicated for sir sham n the rest of the Officers... One was "monkey, gorilla, chimpanzee..." next was, "u are my sunshine" in spite of embarrassing ouselves while doing actions of monkey, gorilla n chimpanzees, we dun really mind coz it's worthwhile... Moreover, it's once in a lifetime opportunity since this yr will be the last yr coz we're graduating soon...
how i wish u were around... It feels so different when ur nowhere to be seen... Seems like the fire had died off... MAybe it's me who depend on ur presence so muccchh... Perhaps it's true what ppl say that absence makes the heart grow fonder ^-^ and b5 i went to sleep, when i mentioned bout me suddenly getting flu, she teased "rindukan dia eh..." my mouth shoot out "merepek ah..." padahal it's a lil true in some way n_nAfter campfire, we cleaned our bunks n then... Followed by briefing... This time round, the briefing was rather short... And had a great time laughing @ certain ppl's hilarious moments XD and what more, it came from someone unexpected to brief us... Dude, seems like u've changed n I guess the impression I had once of u changed too... Being nice doesn't hurt but when it came from you, deep down i felt guilty n remorseful of all the things i mentioned a yr ago... It's a moment of folly... I sincerely seek a thousand apologies from the bottom of my heart...
Last day... Physical training was much better... Everyone's improving n changing... It's kinda like a race but watching them run n participating, I'm glad that they never rebel or anything... Sadly to those who fell... Perhaps they dun mind falling coz when I saw them back up on their feet, they continued... They never give up or anything...
time soon fly by and it's my time to be dismissed... Had to attend religious class... Felt bad leaving them all alone when they needed help but got no other choice... the only thing i did was just to cut the lime as fast as possible... Pity anisa... hopefully her finger recovers soon =))) @ my religious class, I fell asleep during a lesson... Was feeling lethargic and my eyes could barely open... I rest for a while n then... Was informed to sang along... It's rasulullah's b'dae n just selawat for him n_n yeah... soon, we're dismissed...
Decided to go back to sch... Fetch my sister, help her carry her stuff n then eat together... Forgetful me, forget to take my dress bag... Luckily I remembered... Was in a good mood despite knowing the position i'm at... I never mind about it though... In fact, from the bottom of my heart, I congratulate those who managed to get their ranks =DDDD u guys really deserve it... Takde orang usik tak sah... Just coz of one person... Haiyoo... Kenekan balik baru tau =PP hehe... Tak cukup kat sekolah dah kene, kat kedai makn pun kene... luckily my sis played along n buat tak tau je n_n hehe... like sister like sister katakan...
Finally, it's time to head back home after we had our lunch... Reached home, had prayers n then off to sleep XD feels much fresher now :>
K den... It's been a long post... I'm outta here
~cheerios
