Haiz... It's been so long since I last update this blog... I get sidetracked... And lots had happened... Been worrying too much... Over small things... I guess I shouldn't have cared much... But if it's about studies, I'm deadly worried about it... I've been struggling and I know I have to catch up... Hopefully there's still time... Just give ur best shot... Exam is in a week's time thought it's too little too late, there's still hope... This weekend... I'm gonna start revising... I already do actually... Only not enough n_n Sunday, there's religious class... Better go for it... Coz I missed 2 lessons XD not coz I'm lazy but I went somewhere to study and even get help for my studies =p
Got back my POA and Bio test result... I flunk... But it wasn't intentionally... I know my mistakes... And I felt like giving up on bio... Seriously, even if I did like the subject... That was before... My chemistry is better than my bio... And I didn't intentionally fail the test, that ******* humiliate those who failed... And will only let the person sit down if he/she cried... Haiz... Tears began to form in my eyes but no way I'm gonna cry... I'll feel more discouraged... Which I know i'm not supposed to feel that way... Coz then I'll start to have that dun care attitude...
English and Malay was over... Phew! I'm relieved... Only those subjects... POA, Science, Humanities... I must do well for it... If not, I'm not sure how my N levels will turned out to be... K la... That's enough for subjects...
So, how's life now... Hmm... I was blessed to find my hp... But then, can't sms or call... The line's cut... So, have to wait wait wait and wait... Wait till dunno when then I can get the sim card... Haiz... Life's been different without one... So difficult to communicate... Can depend only on my house phone... Or perhaps siblings phone... Nvm den... The bright side of it... There's no distractions =p can fully concentrate when I'm studying XD
Someone's been there... In times of need... Joy and sorrow... Thanks =))) u know who u are *grinz* But sometimes, u can't possibly tell everyone everything... You still need your personal space... But then and again... I'm glad that someone hear me out...Upon hearing that voice, it's like... It did cheer me up all of a sudden... Mungkin penyakit tu dah diubati kut... No words could describe how I feel then n_n At that time, I felt so down... Could breakdown any moment... Not sure of the reason... Weird... This emotions I felt... It's difficult to understand... How could someone possibly understand when ur not sure of urself? How do u stay happy then? Even if there's something which happened always manage to make you feel down? Upset and disappointed... Having courage is difficult enough but how to face it? Self esteem helps eh? Perhaps believeing in oneself is important... But since u've depended on someone so much, why bother... Coz nothing lasts forever? Someone could just walk out of ur life... The thing is... Not to pin hopes on anyone too much coz in the end, u'll end up disappointed... So, back to one, being independant is the best... Only that those times... Frenz do play an important role in ur life... Follow ur heart... Dun follow them... coz when ur influenced by them... Bye bye... I seriously need a break from all this... I need space for myself... I'm sorry... But I dun meant to neglect anyone... Please... Dun underestimate me... Every weekend... I have plans with dearest frenz... Hopefully, it could stay that way... Studying together... Motivating each other to do well... The results will show... I need a break but still, have to stay focus... you have to have that spirit in you... to do well, dun give up... Focus on that goal, and rest assured, u'll do fine...
There are some moments whereby some ppl provoked me... Luckily, I managed to stay cool... If not, I'm sure I would have just recoiled... It's that the word XD have to work hard on my eng too... Art's taking most of my time... Grr... Y am I talking about studies? K la... I guess that surely proves, I need a break from all this... Life was stressful and I am stressed and do stuggle at times... Someone's been there... I can't promise I would not feel stressed out coz there's so many things to be done in a short period of time... I know I have to prioritize my studies but then and again... It's still too much... Haiz...
K la... Gotta stop here... If not I dunno when I will continue my revision n_n
Signing Off
Haneesah