Today was a normal and fine day... Quite a long day though... Coz there's art remedial after sch -.- Only one incident that happened after MT lesson... I was letting one of the guy fren which was known as "mat sentol" go off first... I let him walk off the door... But then, he kinda waited for a while and I wait to let him go off first... But instead, I never expect it... He pull down my sling bag... It was lose on my shoulder so, it kinda dropped... Then, he walk off with the cheeky grin on his face... Ish... 2nd day of the term dah kene kacau... Grr... Takpe takpe... Someday, kenekan balik =p just watch out! XD
Darn it! I guess I did fail my chemistry test :/ oh great! Just beginning to have interest in the subject and then... Failing it makes it more challenging n tough... Ouh well... Failing this test doesn't mean I'll fail the rest of the test... So, never give up! You can do it =) hopefully my bio tests marks will pull up the marks of both chemistry and bio test...
It's been obvious... We've been disappointing... But we have our reasons... Being in first aid post... When we fall out... It's not we intentionally did that... It's true we're not feeling well... Don't tell me... If one of us... The condition could get worse if we push ourself too hard... Don't tell me... It'll be chaos all over if one of us were to faint... Haiyoo... Takkan la nak tunggu sampai pengsan kan baru fall out? Ataupun... Nak kasi mampos ke? Baru nak sadar?! IF a person can't take it and nak fall out, ape salahnye? Sedangkan memang betul2 sakit? Thought one have to be caring towards others? =p
NCO's... doesn't mean we have to be perfect... Everyone... In fact... Human beings have their own strengths and weaknesses... And everyone makes mistakes... So, if disappointment is what one person face... How bout the others?! And the title NCO doesn't suit me... That is truly CLEAR to me... Reflections after reflections made... Deep down,
I DUN DESERVE TO BE AN NCO...
JUST BEING A HOPELESS CASE... getting punishments after punishments... Tried to learn from our mistakes that we continously make... Coz of the responsibility that was too much of a burden to take hold of... Having the potential inside... But can't simply bring it out... Haiz... Can't blame others... So, blame myself... I only have myself to blame... It's me who's at fault... Never take initiative... Very disappointing... As leaders, we have to lead with passion... But doesn't seem so... It's difficult to bond... And without that bond, teamwork could never happen... Hmm... But @ least know each other bit by bit, perhaps it could happen... I guess... Test patience... And if to put emotions aside, which will surely, surely never happen... Needless to say, understanding each other which was a powerful source was absent in the batch of NCOs... too much of conflicts happen... And no time to confront... So, just let it be and go with the flow...
The more I said, the more crap will come out... Tambah2 dosa je... I'm outta here...
I gtg... Byeez
Signing Off
Haneesah