Haiz... I got back my 2nd bio test result today... And guess what?! I failed :/ Hmm... Perhaps it's expected... Anywaez... I just had this dun care attitude... But then and again, I felt upset and disappointed with myself... Coz I know I could have done better... Only that I was truly stressed up just by looking at the questions... And then, my mind went blank... Can't think of the right answers... And I made lots of careless mistakes... Ouh well... What's done cannot be undone... So, why ponder about it... Just continue to strive harder =) u know u can do it... Just perservere and never give up! XD

After school, thought of going somewhere just to spend time alone but then... There's np meeting so, perhaps next time =p hmm... It wasn't a long meeting though... Just take note of from who to collect mc's or parent's letter by friday... Afterwhich, we played ball games... Hidayah, Safirah, Anisa and I... We laughed our hearts out and had a great time throwing balls to each other XD It was interesting... But soon, I get tired...

So, I left first... Reach home and did some house chores... To my dismay, as I was preparing fried rice, the fire went off by itself... That shows, gas finish oready... Dun think of any other gas eh =p it's the gas use for cooking n_n hmm... So, I tried to have my rest but soon get distracted when the delivery man of gas came...

fried rice was today's menu and I'm done with it... Had lunch/dinner and then... I'm off to having prayers and such...

I dunno why I'm like not having faith in myself... Just get stressed up easily... There's test... NP stuff to prepare... Art coursework... And my studies... I'm dropping... I'm not doing well... haiz... I dunno what gets into me but how I wish I could pull through... This fear in me is growing and I'm desperately scared of what's going to happen... Tests results do pull me down and I hate it... It's just so difficult to have that confidence and maintain the good grades... Deep in my heart, the sorrow still stays... Wondering if I tried to give my very best, will the reult show? Seriously, I wanna get good grades and maintain it but somehow or rather, something's stopping me :/ Oh god! Please help me... Masih kah ade harapan?

These days... My buddy wasn't feeling well... But she's weird... Despite being unwell, she could still laugh and as usual being her own self... Her presence made my day... Though being irritating at times =p and then... I'll be having my blues... Ouh well... Sometimes it's like I could break down any moment... This emotions inside me could burst any moment... I should have that patience in me and if I ever vent out my anger... I'm truly sorry... Didn't mean to hurt anyone's feelings but it's too much of a burden to keep everything inside :/ haiz...

Anywaez... Thanks... For everything that u've done... Always by my side... I'm not asking for anything more... I understand the condition ur in... Time will heal everything... Though I'm not sure how long it'll takes... And as a student, I still have my studies to concentrate on... Only that u'll always motivate me which makes me push myself to a limit that I'll give my very best... Touched my heart... With your words... But perhaps, is there still trust? I still have doubts... Ouh well... Whatever it is, I won't be trapped... Rest assured... Just with him around, I'll be fine =) Hmm... Dia tu pula... cuba nak kasi jealous pe?! Mentang2 we're not on speaking terms... Come on la... I've got someone better than you... So, it won't work... And continue it that way... I dun mind actually =p coz I've soon began to lose hope in this friendship...

Hmm... K la... I got a thousand things to be done and time's running out... Gotta go...

Signing Off
Haneesah