How time flies... Now, it's already in the 2nd term... Sec 4 was like the fastest year... As time passes by... With events and adventures all the way during school life... though it wasn't like my previous years... Which was more slacking, still, there's time to play and time to study... Just to achive good grades isn't enough when your brain is working 24 hours... It needs rest... But too much rest isn't good either... Okay okay... I'll stop this crap... I dun even know what I'm actually talking about XD
So, today... First day of school and 1st day of the 2nd term... Been given this tie pin from my closest buddy... And guess what?! Being a
DISCIPLINE LEADER =.= ouh well... Becoming miss high and mighty goody goody n_n Have higher responsibilities now compared to last time... Just a normal student to becoming a leader to help the teachers maintain discipline in students... And then... I knew what my duty is... Something to do with class diary and have to calculate some stuff >.< Which is so not my thing... Urgh?! Maths n maths... And more maths x_x ouh well... Perhaps it could help me improve my maths XD
I got back my results... Satisfied with it though I could do better... Push myself harder next time... Perhaps to the limit... Just to achieve good grades... Ouh well... Hopefully, the results will stay consistant... Teacher told me to continue to work hard... Definitely I will! =p and someone else was like being a parrot telling me to work hard too >.<
And then I saw lots of eyes on my direction... Like I'm creating lots of attention... Hmm... Please la... Stop all those looks... I've had enough of it... It doesn't affect me badly but I'm kinda irritated... If there's still friendship, just talk... Or maybe just to say goodbye... Say it... It's already one month and all of a sudden... Giving this cold shoulder and pretending as if nothing happen... As if dun wanna entertain... What kind of attitude is that?! Grow up la... Kinda childish when I think about it... And why me? And why give those kinds of looks? Even if it's expressionless, behind it, there could be a thousand reasons... Haiz... Whatever it is... I'm about to give up... Only if I could sense some hope in this friendship... If, there's still such thing as HOPE... I'm not satisfied with my malay marks... Even if it's the highest, it's not well done and it keeps dropping while my other subjects marks keeps on increasing... Seriously, it's difficult to stay consistant :/
Malay Language : 64/100 B4English Language : 71/100 2Mathematics : 84/100 1Science(chem, bio) : 62/100 4Humanities(geog,ss) : 50/100 5 Principles of Accounts : 87/100 1Art NA level : VR VRI'm happy for my english... It's really a great improvement... Last year, my eng was grade 5 and now, jump to grade 2... So much of an improvement... Keep it up! Keep up the good work =) For maths and poa, it's expected to get that kind of results ^^ I'm disappointed in malay though... Haiz... Just hope it'll either be an A2 or A1 for malay... Coping with express malay when ur a normal academic student is challenging too... But it's not impossible =p As for humanities... Genap2 je... Cukup makan... But still... There's room for improvement... Work harder! you can do it *grinz*
Hopefully, I could get rid of my laziness... Just to achieve good grades... I need to be discipline and self motivated... Insya allah...
I've never said that I regret knowing someone like you... In fact, from you I learnt so many things about love... Those days we had were meant to be cherished and it's like it happened yesterday... I could still recall it coz most probably, it's been kept close in my heart as treasures... And then you told me that your feelings changed... It's kinda obvious though... I'm not prepared to lose someone like you but from the strength i get and from the kind of frenz who'll always support me, I dun let it affect me... I've been doing well in studies and coz of you who gave me the motivation that time, I continued to strive hard... Then, someone else did the same thing to you as what you did to me... Ouh well... Perhaps she's not meant for you... And there I am to comfort you... Just at the same time realising that there's a lil bit of love left for you... Just a lil... I tried... To end the friendship... But with you being concern, I can't... I wanna let go of the past and move on but it seems like... I'm still clinging onto you... Maybe that time, I let go of you... Not coz of hate... But coz there's still some love left... If you love someone, set the person free... And that's what I did... Sacrifice just for your sake to see you happy even if it's not with me... But in the end, back to square one... Get hurt, disappointed... That's what life is about, eh? Hmm... K la... Whatever it is... We'll just keep in contact... So now, the feeling is just infatuation and just bro n sis... Nothing more than that... Anywaez... Thanks for everything you've done... Hmm... K la... I gtg... It's been a long post and it's getting late... gotta have some rest...
Signing Off
Haneesah
