I lost my ez link card on one fine day... The day I went out with Anisa n Safirah... We were doing some research about hiking n total defence... Need to make up some questions... IT was really tiring as I was fasting... I even like wanna gave up... My legs are getting weaker n weaker... Like walk far far... Padahal... The place is like next to each other... Raffles place... Dhobby Gaut... City hall... Aww man... That's the 3 places which I remembered... I dun really remember any other places I went to...
Had some jokes n laughter... Biase la... Safirah n Anisa... Mesti kecoh n ade2 je dorang nye kelakar... I had a great time... With them...
At city hall... I noticed someone from far... Sitting down at this flight of staircase... I thought that person totally gone in my life... But this small world... Anything can happen n can tak pasal2 terserempak... Kat mana2 je... Sitting alone... Looking stressed... Kinda depressed... Body language could tell... I asked anisa whether it's really dat person who caused pain in my life... She went to see n nodded her head... She show safirah... Den, both of them burst into laughter... Terpakse la naik escalator kat sana... But I took the furthest one... And the pace I was walking... I was walking briskly... If only I knew he were to be there, I would bring his presents n return it back to him... Keeping it makes me feel so much pain n hurt... He didn't call my name or anything... Maybe tak nampak... I just ignored... Sighed with relief when we were oready at other place... As it was getting darker n darker, we headed back home... I opened my book... To see if the ez link card I put inside was there... n it wasn't there to my greatest horror! I panic... Anisa n Safirah helped me search but no luck :( couldn't find it... So, have to go home wothout it... told my mum bout it... Luckily... And the good thing was... I wasn't scolded... Phew! Anisa n safirah shared money to buy a drink... they offered me to drink it for my break fast... I did turn down the offer but they insist... So, I took it... I took a few sips n give it back to them... Thanks guys...
Went to buy a drink as I was feeling thirsty... On the way back, anisa, safirah n I was laughing... Like some idiots... We were like making so much noise... I really had a great time...
Two days course at hta... Makes me feel really tiring... First day was a bore... I dun wanna talk bout it... the second day flies by very fast... Had some games... Work with team mates though didn't know each other very well... But then...
It's like quarelling bout seats... They usually wanna seat with ... Tolak sana sini... I dun even have the chance... To sit with that person... It's like so unfair... Then, quarelled here n there... Just feel like crying at that time... Tears were in my eyes... I'm not notice... I dun even wanna sit with her la... No need to mendengus ngan kasar... Think what?! I like to sit with u ah? No way! Being so irritating n noisy =p Just let me accept the fact that i dun deserve to have frenz like u... I feel like backing out of the team... Coz the feeling of left out... It hurts... Who am I turning to be
Dun deserve to have frenz
Feeling left out most of the time
As days passed
There's no happiness
only sorrow n loneliness
Happiness like a facade
I'm just pretending
This heart bleeds
I don't wanna care
But that doesn't seems like me
It's not like what it seems to be
I'm fading away
Nobody notice me this way....
Hmm... what I exactly feel it stated above... There's still emptiness... Ouh well... Hopefully, I won't feel this way for long... God is there... Hmm... 2nd day was more fun than the first... I did feel like sleeping though... Stay in air con room n listen to lectures... Who doesn't get bored easily? XD There's some lame game... I dun really take part in the game... The part which touches my heart... And gives me the motivation was the last video clip... I really appreciate it... Those words are like giving me words of wisdom, encouragement n motivation *winkz*
Get our certificate... And fall in... Headed towards boon lay... Went to kfc... Hmm... At kfc, i thought of buying some food... But looking at the queue n the food... Got lots of choices... I got headache n didn't buy anything... Safirah n hidayah bout theirs... I was the one who was keeping quiet most of the time... Anisa n Safirah was like the entertainer... I was disturbed by them quite a number of times...
After their meal, Safirah went to McDonald's alone... She waved at us in n show us someone who looked like... We burst into laughter... After she bought the sundae she wanted, we went out... There's this group of civil defence guys... I wanna go out n one of them was like standing infront of me... I heard him say "nak kenal2?" I didn't even look at him... I dunno the guy's face or his name... I walked off... Muka selamba je x_x Anisa n Safirah n also Hidayah laughed at me... Anisa said that I should introduce myself saying... Nama saya "Siti payung -.-" Ouh well... I ignored that n they kept on laughing... I dun even look back at them... Just walk away... Tak kuase nak layan lelaki2 macam gini... I'm oready sick n tired of all those la... guys like those ppl are jerks! I'm so not impressed =p n i dun think i will be... It's gonna take a long time...
Hmm... Headed back home after dat... Nothing much happens...
Bro... You told me how u feel... You were like running away... Please... Dun keep me in the dark... Without u, it's really an emptiness in my life... I can't bear anymore... I needed someone like u by my side... Hopefully, we could meet this saturday... Just spent time together n enjoying each other's company... I began to realise that I miss u since ur always in my mind...GTg... Byeez...
Signing Off,
Haneesah
