The past few days, I had flu, headache n my throat hurts... ANd now it's exam period n my health is like this... Well, I'm still being stubborn n naughty... Though it is raining, n despite the condition I'm in I still played in the rain... And my voice sounds different... Haiz... I'm feeling weaker n weaker each day passed by... I reached home... Had my prayers... Sometimes, I skipped my lunch n went to bed right away after i had my prayers... The headache I had was damn painful x_x

Yesterday, had english paper 1 n english paper 2... It wasn't that difficult... Nor easy... Just okay la... Hmm... Rest assured... I could pass my english :) Being proactive n thinking positive... After the paper... I had some time alone... Went to east coast park... Just enjoying the breeze and view... It was only for a while I did so... Coz the journey there was 1 hour plus... My hp suddenly vibrate... Remind me to do my art... Which till now, I haven't start doing yet XD hehe... I reached home at 3 plus... Had lunch n these time round... Only yesterday I didn't sleep in the afternoon... Coz in the evening, there's parent seminar at school about through trained programme... And it's compulsory to go...

Watched pokemon the movie... HEROES... Latios n Latias... I was nearly crying... Emotional katakan n_n hehe... Alah... But it is sad... Latios died coz he sacrifice his life for the village to be safe... Those villians... Do anything anyhow n their own way... Didn't think of the village... Well, the story taught me... That once when someone had power over something, they will use it anyhow without thinking of the consequences... XD Hmm... It was a nice show overall... But latios n Latias were kinda irritating =p coz they made their sounds... Like for example... Cat they have their own sound like "meow meow" n_n but these two pokemons made their sounds like very irritating... I dunno how to describe x_x

Latias is cool la... She could change to a human being... N she's very playful n naughty... XD hehe... Oh well... I guess I'm one of those pokemon freaks ^-^ Hmm... After this movie ends, I prayed n get ready... Went to school... For the semina of through trained programme... Mrs Tan, our principal talked... N briefed about some of the points on how to count all that... And telling us the students points all that x_x Hmm... My mum talked to only Ms Choo and Ms Haslinda...

Ms Choo was nice n decent when she talked to my mum... SHe did praised me... But then she said that I'm quiet n reserved =p hehe... It's a good thing n a bad thing... Nothing much la... She said I didn't make any problems for her in class all dat... She told me not to keep quiet when I've got a problem... And just go to her for help or advice... Hmm... Den, Ms my mum talked to Ms Haslinda... She said that I daydreamed in class... My mum was holding this set of paper... She beat me using that... Well, I know I did daydreamed in class... But at least I know what she's talking about... though sometimes I'm a lil bit slow n blur, I did make the effort to study... She told me to listen to her n pay attention in class...

She knows taht I love to read books... She even said that I'm very harworking n a good student... =p but then... When she asked whether I showed my mum the social studies test about the source based questions, I shook my head... She asked me why I didn't show, I shrugged my shoulders... How can I possibly show the results when it is not satisfying? I'm gonna get nagging all that... I dun think she could ever understand... I'm the one doing the paper not her... I did put in effort to study but that test... My mind just went blank n I dunno what to write... Haiz... Looking at the results n holding the paper in my hand is enough to make me cry... If I were to show the results, surely I'll get nagging... And once when I was being nag at, will i have the motivation n encouragement to do better?

Of coz no... I just feel so hopeless n helpless... Haiz... My mum den talked bout my bro's result who scored distinction... Come on la... Please dun compare me n him... Social studies is a difficult subject... And it's a new subject introduced in sec 3... How does it feel? When u are being compared? I nearly cried... I tried to control myself but when I blink my eyes, a tear rolled down my cheeks... I quickly brushed it away n read the book I was holding... The more I paid attention to the conversation, I felt hurt... There wasn't much questions asked... I just nod or shook my head when I'm asked a question... I guess I have to put in more effort... The mid year exam paper for social studies was this thursday... Hopefully I could do well :) Have to be proactive...

Hmm... I'm gonna go out later... Study... And have some fun at East Coast park... With my godbro =p hehe... Hopefully, I could let out everything... The more I keep it inide, I feel more burden... The weather's fine... I just hope it'll stay like this...

when can we meet? Oh god! Pertemukanlah dia denganku... I really miss him so much ^-^

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A day out with my Godbro...

We met at eunos mrt control station... Ingatkan boleh terus pergi East Coast Park... N I could cycle n shout my lungs out... But then, we had our lunch... At the nearest hawker centre... Haiz... Ouh well... Maybe some other time... Perhaps... Just feeling stressed out... But oh well... At least i got company *winkz* XD hmm... I packed two containers of nasi lemak x_x Takkan nak makan sorang kan? But then, I did offer my godbro kalau dia nak nasi lemak tak... I did tell him that I did bring one mre pack... But since he dun want, den, it's fine with me =p hehe... He bought chicken rice... And I thought that someone said that he eats very fast... But it turned out I finished my food before him =.= haiyoo... We were den talking about or love life... And he was showing me a pic of whom he likelove... =p hehe...

After dat, we took a bus to East Coast Park... We chat n talked bout lots of things... At east coast park, we were searching for a place to sit down... But unfortunately, there wasn't any empty seats... Or if there is... The seats are wet... So, no choice... We walked to the path at the Coffee Bean shop... Sat at this umbrella area oustide the coffee bean... I asked him to teach me maths... Alah... Just simple questions... Not that difficult... =p you need not explode ur brains when thinking of the questions x_x Though I just said it's not that difficult... I found it a lil bit hard to understand >.< color="#ff6600" size="4">THANKS FOR GUIDING ME! :)

the time was flying by... At about 5+... Nearly to 6, we headed back to where we alight the bus... Hmm... On the way there... As we were walking at the path, that someone kept on making lots of comments... And I was having a good time laughing... Like I burst into laughter n just feel like I'm having a stomachache x_x hehe... Seriously, this person nearly fell down... Then the way that person fell was kinda cool... XD hehe... Orang jatuh pun ade style ^-^ That somebody comment about this "mat salleh"... That the butt was big... "Kalau jatuh bagus juga tu... Jatuh pantat land dulu... KAn mampat sikit" n_n I burst into laughter... Banyak comment seh... That's one thing I found out... Orang tu banyak songeh... Ade2 je yang dia kasi comment >.< I was laughing non stop... Den suddenly, I cough... I cough profusely... Non stop pula tu... From the expression of my godbro, he looks guilty n worried... Maybe guilty of what he said... Coz he did say "are u allergic to my words?" =p hehe... Hmm... Worried... He did say he was worried... I was a lil bit frustrated n irritated... He kept on asking "r u okay?" How am I supposed to answer when I kept on coughing? Ape dah =.= I tried to answer... I did nod my head... But I tried to sound okay even if my voice was like a lil bit shaky... "you made me worry eh... Kalau u pengsan macam mana? I juga yang kena angkat u..." "I tak suruh u angkat pun" :p hehe... "Iye la... But I'm the one who's nearest to u... So, of coz la I yang kene angkat u..." Haiz... Macam bingit gitu... Menyibuk je n_n Anywaez, thanks for your concern...

Before going to the underpass, I drank some water... I cleared my throat... Ahh... Felt much better >.< hehe... But then, I just felt so thirsty... Went to this 7-eleven shop... I bought Strawberry flavoured drink... I've had enough of chocolate oready... Coz in the morning, I ate chocolate... I went out of the shop n was told that the bus just left... While waiting, his fren surprised him from behind... Nama kawan dia "khairul"... And he looks like someone I know... hmm... Kecoh habis ni dua orang :p macam asik gaduh gitu... Orang tu macam kene bully je XD wakakaka... Then, there's this tour bus... The 2nd level was not covered... It was open... =.= "Eh, asal yang atas tu dia tak tutup ah? Nanti kalau hujan kan basah... Abih kalau basah tempat duduk tu kan basah... " "Eh, mulut kau jangan masin eh... Biarkan la tourist tu... Pandai2 la dorang tengok seat tu basah ke tak..." I only heard this part of their conversation... My godbro tried to argue but his friend shut him up x_x wakakaka... "Kau jangan cari pasal eh... Dah dah... Diam... Diam..." :p hehehehhehe.... I was having a great time laughing too...

Tapi kadangkala kan... Orang tu kalau dah tak tau ape nak cakap... He'll surely grin... And than macam paiseh gitu XD wakkaka... Tunggu punye tunggu... Timbul juga bas... n_n hehe... Hmm... The bus to go back to eunos mrt station was packed... Full n filled... So, we took bus 196 instead... It was a long journey back home... and I poured out everything... What I felt all this while... I nearly cried... But then... Those tears were in my eyes... I blink away but it didn't roll down my cheeks... I tried to regain my composure...

He did listened closely... He did give me advice... and I was okay then... When I've got more things to worry about... then, his crazyness made me burst into laughter... His mother called n he told her that he was at orchard... Padahal we were at tiong bahru orchid... Ape dah XD hehe... Then when we were at jln kampung baru, he asked "asal dinamakan kampung baru? Pasal tak lama ke? dia dah tukar baru?" >.< I said"eh... biarkan la... government dah letak nama macam gitu... " Haiz... Ade2 je he tried to argue... Kadangkala geram juga... Macam cari pasal... Haiyoo... Jln bukit merah pula... He asked "kenape jalan bukit merah? merepek ah... takde bukit pun yang warnanye merah?" How do i know... He's like asking me n I dun even care =.= It's kinda frustrating n irritating...

We chat bout lots of things... And finally, we reached clementi oready... My godbro wanna search for some vcd but I dun think there's any kind of those cd's or vcds sold... So, we said our goodbyes... Then, parted...

THANKS FOR HEARING ME OUT,BRO! THANKS FOR HELPING N GIVING ME ALL THOSE ADVICES... I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!!! :)

I had a good day... though tiring... It's a long post... So, I'll end here...

Signing Off,
Haneesah