Today's lessons in school was a bore... So, I dun wanna talk about it... Only NPCC training... I'll make this a short post coz I haven't done my art n mt homework n can still blog... Budak baik katakan n_n hehe... MT homework pasal dialog n art homework kena finish painting by friday... Luckily I started doing the painting oready... Left to do the touch up... MT gone case XD belum lagi start langsung x_x hehe... And the mid year exam timetable was oready out... 1st paper was next friday... My preparations? Entah la... I dunno how to start... Bab penat dah satu hal... Banyak homework dah satu hal... I wanna shout out loud... tapi tu pun nak kene cari tempat yang sesuai... Takkan nak buat kat rumah =p hehe... I'm gonna go crazy if that were to happen... suddenly shout... Den, tak pasal2 nangis... haiz...
Hmm... K la... enough of that... NPCC training today... Well, I was slacking... Seriously... Not only me... But also my other frenz...
THANK YOU TO THAT SIR WHO SELECT THE 15 CADETS... It's just not fair to those who dun have any experience... At least those sec 4's pernah ade experience last year... Dah la pakai number one uniform... Last year... Den, dis year tak pakai number one uniform pun nak kacau juga =p menyibuk je... XD then pilih semua lelaki... Tau la lelaki tinggi... Tapi takkan tak bagi chance kat perempuan? Haiz... Gender descrimination... N those who didn't come for training was selected by sir... Then those yang semangat2 datang tak dipilih... Mana aci... Kalau gitu, lagi bagus tak yah datang training kan? Haiz...Oh well... I lost my mood during the training... Just dun feel like marching in the supporting contigent... I dunno y la... Dulu tak kisah tak dapat masuk dat GOH contigent... But now... Entah la...
THANK YOU SOOO MUCH SIR!!!! Well, if I'm not chosen to be in the GOH contigent, den, I'm not gonna be in the supporting contigent... I'm gonna join the rest of my frenz... No matter what's gonna happen...
Oh well... during the training... I just felt that my presence was not much appreciated... Like I'm someone that ppl dun recognise n choose to ignore... N I just feel the empty me... Maybe if I'm fated to have no frenz, I'm gonna accept the fact... But please... Let me smile... Let it not be a facade... Coz I just wanna be happy... Feel happy... Haiz...Even if I'm left alone, please... Let me be happy... Oh god! Let me have the strength to carry on this life... Let me have a peaceful life... And also, give me ur blessings... I really need it... I just need your love... Coz it's gonna lasts... Hmm... I surrendered myself to u... And will fullfill my responsibilites to you... Rest assured... :)
I just need some place to shout out loud... Hopefully I could do it soon coz it really hurts to keep everything inside... Haiz...
Hmm...K,la... I gtg...
Signing Off,
Haneesah
Pen down my thoughts at 10.50p.m.