Wednesday, 28th March 07....

Lessons went on as usual... Nothing exciting... I dun remember anything exciting this day... It was just a plain, normal n fine day... After school... I had my lunch with my frenz... Den, changed to full uniform... While changing..... I didn't realise that my ez-link card dropped onto the floor... Farah told me bout it n I said thanks... Oh well... What else can I say... The good thing was she did tell me... My twin... XD Kak Erzawati was also in the toilet too... She looked kinda stressed up... Coz whatever we said... Dia macam suruh diam x_x Maybe ade blues kut >.<

Though it rained... It was only for a while... So, speech day was carried on... I fall in with my squadmates... There's only 9 of us... Coz some go HTA for NPDP and some go CSW... I was sweating as if i've just finished running 10 rounds around the whole school n_n Mr Yap asked me whether I drank enough water or not... Coz he was like telling me to cool down... I just smiled... He advised me to have lots or water n better drink up... I just smiled like some idiot ^-^ We were given a lenyard... [or however way u spell that x_x] and we fixed it followed by the instructions given... The guys wear it, it really suits them... The girls wear it... Like dosen't suit at all... XD But since we were given the instruction and were told to wear it, we have no choice but still have to wear it >.<

And during the speech day... It was damn hot... The heat was very intense... I just felt that I could faint... If I didn't endure... I won't be surprised if I fainted... I was standing at the front some more... And I'm not used to standing infront... I wanna stand in the middle row while fall in but when they did sizing command, I was given the position to stand infront *sigh* I was praying silently n softly... That *someone* would come... And maybe bring a smile to my day... My prayers were answered when that *someone* came n_n But the feeling wasn't there... THough I was excited seeing you there, I dun feel as excited as last time... Maybe my feelings for that *someone* changed oready... I did see that person like looking at my direction from the corner of my eye... But then... Nvm... Mam Val n Mam Peisin also came down to the training... XD

While practising how to hormat senjata... I just realised that we have to bring up the rifle to the front at a very high position... May arms was shaking and trembling as it was quite heavy and we have to endure holding it up high in the air x_x even Staff sergeant Ainul asked me"Hey... You okay or not?" I just nod my head and smiled... THough the fact was that I was trying my best to endure... and just felt like throw down the rifle to the ground n just collapsed x_x *sigh* Suddenly, I like turunkan my senjata... Was blur oready la ^-^ Then, I looked around... I make my rifle back to rusuk senjata position... When I saw all of them in that position except me... Even mas hafiz saw that n he said "Luckily ah..." I dun look at him at all and gave him the selamba face... Like I did nothing wrong =p

Combined marching with the GOH NCC... They marched quite fast... =p the timing given was not as fast as the way they march... It was like full dressed rehearsal... Coz even the band were playing the music... Seriously, tak leh angkat dok... Panas giler semasa training semalam... It's like... I'm not prepared for it... I never dreamt of standing in front in the contigent... Oh well... What to do... When I can't take it anymore, I decided to join the supporting contigent with the sec 2's... Hidayah also followed me... The baton they are carrying is much more lighter than the rifle... Like DUH -.- And I kinda like it... Marching with the baton... I miss those days marching with the baton... And now, I was given the opportunity... Why not make full use of it? After taking the baton, we went to the water cooler to drink water... Those in the GOH was still standing at the quadrangle... Macam tak baik gitu... We took the baton and have more time to like rest as we were given break... Macam kita ni sec 2 gitu... Dapat break 10 minute dok =p hehe... We were supposed to be standing at the quadrangle too... But since we passed our rifle to those who wanna be in the GOH, we are in the supporting contigent...

The supporting contigent was okay la... Rehearse again and they called it a day... Bersurai... Met the sirs and mam for the announcement they wanna make... And guess what? We, sec 3's are told to be involved in the sec 1 swearing in... XD I was exhausted... And here he was telling us to organise all this... Oh god?! That time I felt like I wanna shout and cry at the same time... So stressful la... Den, we went home... All of my frenz took bus to go home... I did too... I decided to take 196 back home... I needed the all the time... To like just have time to myself... In the bus... I looked at the weather outside... I nearly cried... I managed to hold back my tears to let it cascade... I blink my eyes... There wasn't alot of ppl in the bus... And my mood that time was down... Coz of... After training, I dun really talk that much coz the 4 of them was talking... I'm like the only one there standing... Like some extra person... I managed to hide my feelings... Anisa and Safira was telling some stories they experienced during the CSW... I listened closely... When I find it funny, I just laughed... for me, that laugh was only a facade to hide what I truly was feeling... That proves it... that kadangkala kita punya teman tapi kesepian dan kesunyian tetap dirasa... *sigh*

Reached home at 8pm... Had a bathe and then had my prayers... I cried... Continously... Prayed to god... That If I wasn't given any frenz... Give me the chance to at least feel happy... To have the courage and strength to go through all the obstacles that may come... To face anything with coruage... And also... To hardern my heart... And don't let what others said affect me... Seriously... I needed God by my side... So that I could live a normal life... So that HE could show me the correct path towards the happinedd that I've been searching for all this while... To give me the courage to fight back my feelings I had for *someone*... I'm missing that *someone* till I'm crying... *sigh*

My dad thought I was tired coz my face was red... But it's because I was crying... I had my dinner... It was a heavy one... Coz I ate a few chicken n_n hehe... Cleared the kitchen and went to bed... K la... Enough of Wednesday...

Today... thursday... Guess what? First period je... Everyone was like half dead... Oops! No everyone... almost everyone in my class n_n was half dead... Coz we still felt exhausted... Speech Day rehearsal... So, as first period was Humanities, our kind teacher *grinz* Ms Haslinda gave us time to rest after she finished explained what she wanna explained... Did a reflection n then we had our rest... Thanks cher!!!! =D English period... Had some fun with a few entertainers... All of us were given instructions to do a proposal format... Those who made mistakes... need to go to the front of the white board and sang a song... Luckily I wasn't caught n_n hehe... Those who were caught... Thanks for being supportive to sing the song... "You are my sunshine" Though some guys... Siape2 yang terase tu la eh... =p nyanyi lagu ni macam half dead gitu... Ade pula... Ade yang tak nyanyi langsung... Tak supportive langsung...

TPI... Jadi budak baik... I took a cloth and wiped the whiteboard... Then I write what I erased from the whiteboard... suddenly, my partner in class... The one who sat beside me... Came to me... And she said I write very small... I was kinda fed up... so, I said in a loud voice "Den, how big u want?!" I wrote big2... Den, she exclaimed" wah?! so big... " She said" not like dat la... dat's not what I mean... " Haiyo... Macam nak cari pasal... I was busy writing and she was giving comments... i get irritated with her n I said "Irritating sak!" She banged the marker n said "Fine!" And stormed off... Siape tak fed up seh... I tried to ignore her... But she kept on talking n like giving comments... So, I have to like say back what I thought of n den... She won't say anymore stuff...

And then had to run 3 rounds... For our mass run... It's not me alone... The other sec 3 classes pun lari juga... XD On the way to go there, I saw selenge... We walked pass each other... I didn;t even looked at him but I dunno la... From the corner of my eyes... Dia macam tengokkan je... I was telling rafiqah bout what happened in class while i was writing something at the whiteboard... After running, my frenz n i decided to go back to class... I went to the water cooler... I dun even realise... I go drank water at the water cooler... I forget that I was fasting ^-^

During recess... Peck Cheng, me n fatin n rafiqah went back to class... Fatin offered me her food but I turned down her offer coz I'm fasting... I told her dat... N den... She does not believe me... Coz she saw me drinking water at the water cooler... Den, I realised... Ye tak ye eh... I did drink water just now... XD hehe... I forget... I laughed myself... Fatin gave me the one of a kind look n_n hehe... Den, we went to the toilet... Peck Cheng locked the classroom before going to the toilet... Somebody asked for the key... Rafiqah said"Peck cheng, ur darling...." Peck Cheng went out of the toilet and passed the key to that somebody =p hehehehehhehe... WEnt to the canteen after dat... On the way there... Guess what? My file dropped to the ground... And my worksheet bertaburan n kene kat tempat mud2 situ... Habis worksheet kotor pula tu... *sigh* And it's bio notes x_x

During bio... Had someone supervising our class... Who is Proffessor gun... I guess so >.< we greeted him by saying "gd morning prof gan...." followed by the other teachers... Lesson was a fast one as everyone was paying close attention... And it was kinda interesting when I put my mind and heart to it... Though sometimes I did yawn ^-^ hehe... POA... Nothing much happens...

Maths was fun too... Mr Chng told us lots of jokes... And one which Emanuel said something which makes everyone laughed... Teacher just smiled... Mr Chng was explaining something like he was doing this experiment... Den... Emanuel cut him short "Den, dat's how u get ur hair like dat,eh?" Everyone laughed... Teacher just grinned... Had a great time wif all his jokes... This maths lesson was the best among the rest XD hehe... Coz we were told lots of jokes n we were laughing like one kind... And we were given some primary sch questions which required alot of thinking... Lesson ends fast n we were dismissed... At the clementi mrt staion at the platform there...

Someone poked me... I turned and anisa was the one... Ouh yar... Before maths lesson start, I poked her... she poke me back... Den, I poke her back... Den, she took my pencil box n said"I know this means so much to u..." I went to her n snatch my pencil box... She went back to her place n did her stuff... I poked her back... she just looked at me n den we start a conversation... Not really one... Just ask each other questions... Like interview like dat n_n hehe I alight at jurong... she thought I will alight at clementi... But I didnt... She said "menyibuk je la kau ni... Pergi ah... turun la..." I said"tak nak... dun want =p" hehe... she asked me where I was going... I said "Ade la..." she teased me saying that I wanna meet someone... N asked whether it was from drakon, unicorn or gryphon... I said no way... Takde la... Reached jurong n said byes... I asked her where she was going... She told me that she wanna go home but was heading the centre train... She went in... I went to the library to borrow some books... On the way there, I tapped my ez-link card n saw her... thought dia betul2 naik mrt yang tengah punye... Padahal tak... She said she just went in n den went out... =.= ape je... =p hehe...

We said goodbyes n went our seperate ways... Reached the library n went home after dat... Like so many adventures happening... K la... THis post is long enough... GTg... Byeez...

Signing Off,
Haneesah