Feeling sick and tired of this life... It's like a schedule oready... When my mum's working in the morning, I've to do the laundry... Cook for lunch and dinner... At nite, clean the kitchen... I got a call just now... From my mum... My great grandma just fell down recently... And when she asked me what's my great grandma doing... I said she was frying some bananas... Den she started to nag... "Dia kan sakit... Kenapa you kasi dia goreng? You la yang gi goreng pisang tu..." My reply was "tau...tau..."
Expecting me to do everything? Am I a robot or something? What I'm done also sometimes was not appreciated... [sigh] If only there's someone to take over my place... I just wish to live independantly... So that I won't have to do all the house chores... All by myself... I could have time to myself... Have my own privacy... Know what's life...
The 2nd child did more than the 1st child... It's not fair... The responsibility is more to the second child just becoz I'm a girl... Then, how bout the 1st child? Pagi2 dah keluar rumah... Thought that as a family, we help each other out... but instead... Everything was done by one person... And the feeling of being treated like a maid filled my thoughts...
Oh well... School's gonna reopen soon... In two weeks time... Have to open up those books and started to read them... I dunno if i could focus and concentrate fully on my studies... I hope so I could but I'm not sure myself x_x weird...
I tried to let go of the past... But no matter how I tried not to think of it... It kepts lingering in my thoughts... During the day, I was quite busy and didn't think much at all... But during nite time... When I wanna have my rest... I closed my eyes... Those memories linger in my mind... Which I dun wanna think about... Coz it's in the past... Why should I think of the past? Something that I guess won't ever happen again... [sigh] oh well... just have to have the courage to carry on wif this lifeCINTA DARIPADA MANUSIA HANYALAH SEMENTARA... CINTA KEPADA TUHAN UNTUK SELAMA-LAMANYA... LEBIH AFDAL MENDAMBAKAN CINTA TUHAN DARIPADA CINTA SESEORANG MANUSIA =PK la... I gtg...
Byeez...
Signing Off,
Haneesah