Haiz... Today in the morning... I accidentally broke a glass... It was shattered into pieces... Dunno what crossed my mind... I took a piece of the broken pieces and slit my left hand... Oh well, the cut not that deep... No worries... I know it's something silly to do... But I dunno how to control my emotions any longer... Day by day, feeling that u're getting further apart from ur loved ones is just killing... N it kills me that me n someone special in my life... Is only my
BEST FRIEND?! He's just too special... I can't forget him... I know he's busy rite now... But his silence is like killing me...
Without him by my side, I just feel too feeble... Though he believed that we will go through this together as a best friend, I dun think I could really accept the fact... Just imagine... someone you loved deeply... And it's been 5 months plus being in the relationship just left you... It hurts in the heart... It's like a knife being stabbed rite at the heart... I tried to move on... But all of it was like pretending... I laughed in the outside but in the inside? Only god knows... Seriously, I just feel like my life is full of sorrow... I was blessed that I was given the happiness... But then... That happiness was really like a dream come true...
Then now... Those dreams are like shattered oready... Those hopes n dreamz that we shared... Are all memories of the past... Moving along... I didn't know life could be so difficult... And I have to face all this... My strength that were once quite strong... Without you by my side... Were now decreasing... Without you, i dunno how i'm gonna get the strength... Though I believed that GOD could give me a lil strength... The rest is like... Up to you... You really mean so much to me... Don't you know that? I wouldn't dare to hurt ur feelings or your heart... Should I have to say those three words so that you know how much you mean to me?
But through my actions, can't you see how much u mean to me? I dun care bout my godsis just to be wif you... Coz ur by my side... You promise that i won't regret it... But... [sigh] Promises are meant to be broken? You didn't fullfill all ur promises... And those dreamz u told me... Wanting our relationship to last long... Maybe it's my fault just becoz of a stupid mistake... But though I tried to tell u what u meant to me... It just hurts that ur feelings oready changed... Begitu mudah ke perasaanmu berubah? As for me, I have to fight wif my own feelings...
Well, it's raining... And my mood was quite down too... Only that these tears...
I do cry for you... But then, nothing could bring you back to me... Alangkah baiknya kenangan semalam kembali pada hari ini... Oh well... I just needed some strength to carry on wif this life...
Hmm... K la... Gtg...
Take care guys in c'ya soon [grinz]
Signing Off
Haneesah