Have anybody have any wishes to run away from home? When there's so many troubles that remains unsolved? When there's nobody you could turn to... Nobody to run to at home... I cry to myself... silenty, praying that all this would stop... I would live life the way I want... Coz the feeling of being treated like a *maid* is what I feel... N it's like... I dun belong at home... Some more, it's like the elders all turning their backs on me? Y can't I have some space? Izzit lack of communication? Coz I know I dun really communicate...
It's difficult as you dunno hu u can turn to at home... Well, sometimes, there's somebody... But you can't just depend on the person forever... Have to be independant... Haiz... Oh well... Should just carry on wif life... Let me sacrifice... I'm willing to be patient wif everything... I'm just hoping it'll last... Maybe some things are better keep inside your heart... Den just sharing wif the others... It's difficult to understand coz sometimes, I also dun understand myself... Really2 weird...
N at home... My schedule will be like... Help in the kitchen, have lunch, have my prayers, do my assignments, use of handphone, have dinner... N den rest... Sometimes, it one day, I can't count the hours I've rest... Maybe it's long hours... Coz I dun feel like doing anything else... Sleeping also bores me sometimes... Haiz... What to do? If only I could just go out... Have some peaceful mind... Be alone... Have the fresh air...
Though I know if I step out of my house, the air would not be that fresh
As there's air polllution ;) kwang3... ^_^ Hmm... That's why... But maybe if only I could enjoy the scenery in singapore... Without any disturbance... Just wif my loved ones... Guess I'll be fine... If I'm alone, I'll get easily bored... N I can't stand being bored...
What should I do? Can't think so much now... Or my headache will get worse... N some more, I'm still having flu... Hope I'll be fine... Rest assured...
K,la... Gtg... Byeez...
signing Off,
Haneesah